Yes, I know it's been around... 2 years since I last posted. But seriously ever since entering Uni, what is life anyway?
Well one of the reasons why I'm back here is mainly.. well...
okay well to be greatly honest even now I'm questioning why am I so worried or a bit shaken up.
Before we get into the nitty-gritty stuff let's just summarise two years into one post, shall we?
- Entered MacqUni - studied Psych&Jap
- learnt about how GPA was so damn important
- reflected what the hell I'm doing with my life
- still worked at Subway (Ugh)
- doing shitty at uni cause of Psych units - even though I loved it
- meeting beautiful people throughout the years.
- meeting so many Japanese people through buddy programs
- starting to realise I'm "growing up"
- mood swings with people
- moved houses
- more reflection time
- more catch ups
- volunteering
- more memories made
- connections with their comings and goings
- I hate life.
- I love life.
- WTF.
- Got rejected by exchange application - stupid GPA
- Able to go to JENESYS - to Japan <3 font="">
- MACQ mentoring
- quit Subway
- so much love and karaoke
- so much tears and departures
- too many feels these days.
I probably forgot to mention other stuff but.... oh wells. in the meantime,
just wanted to have a little release of emotional energy that has built up for a while.
For starters, what I can't get over, is the fact I keep thinking about myself. Quite self-absorbed, right? Even I realised that but yet there's a part of me that can't control this behaviour. It's not just me but even people around me.
Maybe I'm just emotionally unstable atm.
I don't even know anymore.
But yeah, what triggered me to post again is because of a very good friend of mine I made when he came over to Australia for a month. Loved talking to him about life and was able to learn so much.
But knowing the difference in culture, I feel really guilty into pushing him to always answer my long-ass replies. Cause well, girls talk too much anywayyy! Of course, he does not necessarily tell me about it. But then again, once he does, it hurts like crap. Seriously don't know why the Japanese always makes you feel so dam guilty. WHY SO RESPECTFUL?! Even though asking that makes no difference considering I already somewhat know how their society works. Okay not going to get too technical at this time.
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ugh there is so much for me to learn.
There is so much motivation for me to continue forward.
But anyway, if nothing makes sense, it's because I didn't completely write down everything - hence there would be slightly jumps / not much cohesion.
Sigh.
Until the next time.