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Okay... this post is going to be basically about random stuff. Good luck with the reading! :]

I love:

1. My family

2. My good/close friends

3. my tiger plushie.

4. drawing/art

5. playing the piano to express my emotions

6. the feeling of freedom

7. anime/manga/drama

8. learning about things in life

9. sleeping

10. food (all kinds).

I dislike:

11. sickness

12. migraines

13. waking up to my alarm

14. being in a bad mood.

15. being an idiot.

16. over-worrying.

17. paranoia.

18. hurting people when I never intended to.

19. being unable to help your loved ones.

20. bitterness (food).

I think:

21. the sky should be an actual painting.

22. humans should grow a pair of wings.

23. life should not be difficult at times.

24. depression should never exist. (even though that'll be really weird/different)

25. people's reactions are hilarious.

26. stars tell us our future.

27. I shouldn't procrastinate.

28. ghosts are real.

29. swear words shouldn't exist. (for our younger generation's sake).

30. the moon has a smiley face on it.

My mind likes to:

31. be a noob.

32. think a lot.

33. be random.

34. go on social networking.

35. procrastinate.

36. over-load when working.

37. stay blank.

38. go crazy over awkward silences.

39. become crazy.

40. sleep.

Good Songs (random):

41. U&I - K-ON

42. Ni Zui Jin Hai Hao Ma - S.H.E

43. Wo Yi Zhi Dou Zai - Lin Ji An & Chen Yu Lun

44. Dynamite - Taio Cruz

45. No Thank you - K-ON

46. My Immortal - Evanescence

47. To be Free - Arashi

48. Kai Bu Liao Kou - Jay Chou

49. Being - Kotoko

50. Cherish - Ai Otsuka

Yummy Food:

51. Japanese/Korean Sweets

52. Different types of Ice cream (including fried ice cream :D)

53. Takoyaki!

54. Cakes

55. Chocolate

56. sushi!

57. Yumcha!

58. Juice! (its a food ish? D;)

59. BREAD! (from breadtop)

60. biscuits..

My goals are:

61. to become someone that I'll be proud of.

62. to get a good job

63. get over 90 ATAR.

64. to one day do voluntary work.

65. to give all my close friends something they deserve.

66. to balance work with social life (this is still hard..)

67. to cosplay one day/ cosplay someone else ;D

68. make 1000 cranes. (one day.... )

69. finish all my piano courses while doing my yr 11-12 exams

70. to live my life to the damn fullest >:D!

10 Random Memories:

First word that comes to the head:
81. A - apple
82. B - banana
83. C - cat
84. D - delicious
85. E - easyway
86. F - fudge...
87. G - games
88. H - horse
89. I - igloo!
90. J - jam.
As you can see I'm still a food person. Don't know why I have this section here anyway.

I want:
91. To live anywhere but reality.
92. to be able to control my life with a remote.
93. to go back being a kid when I knew nothing about the world.
94. to know where I go from here.
95. everything to stay the same and never end.
96. to be confident.
97. my optimism to be spread out towards others.
98. to be there for someone when I need to be. Wish I was a mind reader though.
99. to look up and never cry.
100. to take my life to the limit.

Yes, I'm a tad bit delayed.. since many of you guys are like..... wayy off. LOL. Cause I don't really post much like I used to D;

Japanese Excursion 09!

just checked out the photos of 09. naww... such sweet memories. <3
it was a good/bad year. LOL. like every other year.
Reminiscing the good times are the best! especially with pictures. ...

Lately, I've procrastinated many times. Though not always... ish. I need to get my head looking straight and focus! But that might take some time adjusting. -o-
The weather ain't helping though.
I don't like this kind of weather. The weather that gives you a compacted, warm feeling on your skin and it doesn't seen natural. More like, strange and weird. So, I don't like it. I want the coldness. The weather that has the bright yellow sun and a hint of clouds with some cold, yet soothing wind coming down to earth. Not the dark weather with boiling temperatures. Creeps me out a bit. Oh wells.
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Don't know what to do with my 100th post . o-o

Again. MAPLESTORYYYYY! thanks to my sister, I'm now playing it. Well the private servers that is. But it's weird that when I play it, I get a bit lonely. More like I feel like I have no life. It's just addicting I guess. Since I won't be seeing my friends everyday because of the holidays... I feel a bit lonely without them :( ...
みんな大好き！＞ｗ＜
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Currently watching:
SPY KIDS 2.

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and got a migraine. Great D;

K-ON IS CONTINUING!

K-ON IS CONTINUING!
K-ON IS CONTINUING!
K-ON IS CONTINUING!
YAYYYY!
*happy*
The feeling of knowing a continued series of an awesome anime is just refreshing :D
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let's see. JAPANESE ASSIGNMENT. stayed up til 12 doing it D; apparently got an A ... well that's what Michael said O_O...
Today was full bludge ..... maybe not.
Had to do Math & english work D; what happened to those bludge lessons in yr 7&8? ):
Damn Yr10. D: <
Doesn't help the fact that trials are on first week of term! DAYUMMMM! studystudystudy..til our eyes go red.
Calculus. It's not that hard. We'll for now.. o_o' just started it in tutor. Gosh knows what's next.
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Emotional week? damn straight. Horoscopes can even surprise the heck out of me. :P

FOREVERRR YOUNGGGG. I WANT TO BE FOREVER YOUNGGGGGGGGGG~♪

Eating fried chicken with boiled lettuce + soy sauce &.. RICE.
You JUST can't get enough of food. It's too good. :D

Currently doing a last-minute jap assignment.

I seriously don't know why I'm blogging but I am. And don't know the purpose atm. *thinking*
ah screw it.

This week has been... weird. o-o it's like a roller-coaster. Having ups and downs so quickly you start to go crazy. Something like that. Just some fixing in certain stuff.
I still feel so damn helpless. bam

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and i just left this post on for the past hr. IM SORRY MR. POST D; (crazy..... )

Let's see. Quick post.

Need to finish:
Japanese assignment
load of tutor hw
and maths.
Did all my catch up work on english yesterday and almost killed. Felt weird not procrastinating. Oh wells.
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Tutor soon. >.<
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I want to be of assistance. Though neglecting ain't going to make your mind any better.

be free.

No one's free in this world. In reality that is.

That's when the need for imagination comes forth and blesses us the help we deserve.

Okay. Things are going okay? Not the best. Though I hope not the worst. The heart just likes to play around with the mind doesn't it? Anyway.

Okay work.

- Need to finish like..7exercises for maths. (I'm screwed)

- Finish all my load of tutor hw...

- English SC practice.
-JAP ASSIGNMENTTTT. .......

And that 3u tutor lesson just went ASDFGJKSHAEGDFGAFDS . I'm on the urge to going crazy on Polynomials. It seems okay. But so confusing at first. Just need to process it in. Damn! And 2u is not making it easier as Trigonometric Proofs does NOT glue on to my memory very well. T^T. Just need to practice it until my hand dies. DD;

HOLIDAYS YAY!. maybe not. Trials come sooner. damn.

Had the STRANGEST dream, and don't want to remember it. = =

And this post didn't end up the way I wanted it. Cause my purpose for posting isn't on here. And post random stuff instead. o-o.. oh wells. Next time :P..

OKAY ... so everyone right now is really off these days. The time of Virgo. Wonder if that has something to do with it.
Earth.
Mutable.

Changes occurring/occurred.
The time of difficultly.
Cold & dry.
Melancholic.

Well, doesn't refer to EVERYONE, cause astrology can't determine every single life out there. But, majority I guess.
Hm, coincidence? no idea.
Your opinion. :o

Dear: _______

yes, you. I'm sorry to repeat my words to you over and over again. But I just want that miracle to happen, because I hope for the best. Unfortunately... you don't. So this post is for you to read and understand what I have to say until that day when you finally lock it into your heart and head of what is right in front of you. Firstly, 당신을 사랑합니다, just keep that in mind. You deserve wayyyy more than you do right now. The people that surrounds you just sickens me to hell as they have treated you like crap. Calling you things and names. They are like little immature kids. That never learn. They will soon have karma returned which they deserve one day. Just one day, it will happen. I want you to move schools, no matter what. I know you don't want to cause trouble to her. But if I was her, you have no idea how guilty and horrible I'll think of myself. I'll move you to another school instantly before you know it. But, no, you don't want her to worry. You don't want to be a burden. You don't want to hurt someone because of you. And I'm sorry if all this might make you think 'wtf'. But this is how I see things in my perspective in many ways. Also. you are smart. However you never seem to listen in my words. Because of people calling stupid, for many years. Sure, I might not make much of a difference, and you think that I'm just wasting my time trying to help you. THINK AGAIN. I do care. No matter what you say, I'm going to try my best to do something. I never waste my time trying to help, because I believe you are better than 'they' say. Also, you say 'he' is doing it for your own good(something along those lines)? Yeah, true, sometimes you need to know some things that seem pretty harsh. It's just so damn frikkin UNACCEPTABLE TO KEEP SAYING IT OVER AND OVER AGAIN UNTIL YOUR _____ IS FRIKKIN AFFECTED MENTALLY AND SUFFERING PHYSICALLY. If I look it that way, I will never accept it. But if he wants to come crawling back to you, and saying sorry and crap, he better have a hell of a good reason or I ain't convinced. I'm sorry if I seem ones-sided and yeah, but from what I hear, I just can't get any optimism on 'him' anymore. The more crap I hear that he did to you, the more I doubt that he is worthy of anything. Seriously, he's having a hell of a good life while you are here, suffering mentally, knowing that you are depressed inside hiding it and ignoring that fact until a breakdown. But that's all going to change. I bet my life that one day, that day where everything goes your way, will come. You think that's impossible? Think again! Cause I have high hopes and good optimism right now. Every problem ends with a solution. But you know why people don't believe that? It's because of the problem, people are blinded within it so much, their solution is so blurry that it'll disappear. Though not every solution comes within a second. Obviously it'll come with time. Patience. You will get your full happiness one day. The world is balanced. Our lives are full of problems and blessings. Please understand the things I'm saying to you, there is so much to tell you. But majority of it, it'll be repeated. Cause I know all of this is not going to fully remain in your mind.
I'll give you anything to help you. Just please move schools for the better, stay happy forever, believe that you are better than you believe to be and live with all your heart..!
=]

okay. I'm trying to start on my English Essay and it's not working ell, since I am not really processing all of the info in my head. Argh, I don't really get it atm... so tired. and procrastinating did NOT help at all - o - ...

Random Pon&Zi :D

Also got other stuff to do, geez. tutor & jap assignment. seems less, but I got soo much for tutor dammit. DD:<

Just need to work more.. :/

BOOOOM.

sore eyes. *rubs eyes* ...crap.

When you see the sky cry, don't cry with it. Stay happy and smile. Because someday, the sky will smile with you, as you have shown how a smile can be worthwhile after the most harsh moments.

If someone cries, you don't always have to cry with them, as if you smile, your optimism will rise and it will be given to some one that will need it more than you.

First Wedding I'd been to .. o-o .. I'm quite delayed.. ^^'
Majority of the points are in random order!!
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- Just went to their reception yesterday about about..... 7? Got a bit late since there was no parking space.. T_T
- The bride was prettyyyyyy :D You can just tell she's ULTRA HAPPY! xD
- The couple 'danced' their way on the red carpet :D (nawww!)
- Anyway, got a picture with them, and met my cousin (long distanced), Yen, who looked so pretty :D. And it's her first time putting make up and wearing a dress on xD. Since, she recently came from Vietnam o:
- The food was good :D (yummm seafood..... )
- kept watching the little kids dancing randomly on the dance floor; they are so adorableeee >w< !! kept falling down and getting up again xDD
- Then took some pictures with this machine, and it was just hilarious :L. cbb scanning them atm xD
- Ended up being dragged up to dance when I had no confidence O-O ... blahh ..
- Thank gosh there was the macarena & nutbush :D . can't get enough of them ^^
- 'They replayed the song 'Replay''. quoted from my sister :L
- accidently got hit in the side of the face O_O'
- dad didn't go coz of work DDDDDDDDDD; !!!!
- didn't take much pictures since my phone is a noob o-o!!
- the place just looked awesomeee >w
- thanks to my dad's advice of not eating anything before the actual thing, had to wait an extra 1-2hrs til we actually can eat.. was so hungry... D;
-When Cathy made her speech, it was like in 3 different languages O_O . though i did not understand the Viet and Mando... D: apparently it was funny!!
-Then came home not wanting to go D; it was fun either way :D

Thank you Henry&Cathy for inviting us to your wedding :D !
I hope you guys have a long and happy life together ♥

around 3:30am. Woke up by twisting around for a bit and noticing 2 circles of light flashing on the ceiling. Here comes the paranoia - - .. But apparently it was my internet adapter flashing in the middle of the night x.x

After that, I still got a bit worried about my surroundings .. especially with that talk with Maylin, about ghosts haunting and stuff ... I am scared crapless now. DDD:

So played on my phone.. and kept thinking something's around me... O____O .. yup.. this is how my mind goes when it's scared to the extent of joining the paranoiac side. GREAT.

Slept after an hour .. damn now I don't if I can sleep properly again.. x____x ...

Ghosts are cool and all, but the ones Maylin pointed out can frighten the daylights out of you. o.o !!

Anyways... still tired ... got a Wedding to get ready for .. apparently it's at 7pm, for some reason. o.O .. well it's my first time and yeah.. :/

zzzzzz

Damn straight it is not.

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TODAY WAS tiring. really. Had a geo test D;
and some events that happened. o_o .. (sorry I'm really lazy to type everything T__T)
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tutor was same old. drawn on more arms. mwahaha .. 'LONELYYYY ...' my friend just loves to sing :L.
go mistaken for being in year 12, I thought I looked the opposite... o-o
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ate yamyams ... yumm ..
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Adrenaline is scary... O_O ..........

uhh ... just came back from an 1hr wait from the carpark. wtf @ the drivers. They were full beeping cause of their lack of patience D:< ! Oh wells, at least I'm home x.x
And sister needs to do a music assignement due tmr, and haven't started.Faillll -.-

Oh yeah, that SC tutoring thing gave that booklet in o-o. Yayay! Now just need to fill the whole thing out D;
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Science Test today, it was 'DDD:' ! I studied for a bit either way.. WAHHHHH !
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Jenny & I had to swap shoes at some point... it was pretty small so no wonder she was suffering O_O' It felt weird without my normal shoes D;
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すしすしすしすしすしすしすしすしすしすし。。！
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'かわいくて、こわくて、' ... Jessica will know what I mean :L ..
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TUTOR. Could NOT concentrate. Felt like a blockage of blurs and tired eyes. *wacks my head*
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Pocky, pocky ..... and more pocky... yum.

Just random thoughts. :D

ごめん.

Today was normal, as always? LOL.

Science - watched about the Big Bang theory... Jenny doesn't seem pleased.. D; then again, the clip we were shown scared the crap out of me. Like the galaxy is going to explode soon which is like billions of years later. It's still scary the way it was showing us about it. Don't really want to think of that, don't want to know either. But the planets and stuff looked awesome (Y).

History - Thank gosh the test isn't going to our name. So basically the whole class talked a lot at some point. It was funny. But there was that rooster that annoyed the heck out of me.ASDFGHJKJHGFDSA.... = ='

Recess - No comment. Except for Saryna's awesome + neat + tidy + pretty diary/handwriting! O_O Pro.

Commerce - haha. HIGH RESOLVES ARE GONE AGAIN! Sir ain't happy. He didn't seem he minded though. Went up to the library where the High Resolves were. Looked at books and yeah, talked about formals, SC & Trials.

English - We had Careers today :). Had to do this online thing to see what kind of jobs would fit us. That reminds me, need to check email.

Lunch - Will remain unknown :P

Art - Everything was cool :D random talks and yeah xD.

Maths - It was fineeeee. Did practice for SC. and talked randomly. and had to carry a huge canvas as well. x.x

Wow, pretty quick. Or maybe that's because I get bored of what to post... hm. anyways DAY 25.

Day 25: Closing thoughts about this challenge/yourself/life/etc.
The challenge was pretty okay. Nothing that I can't answer. Only my laziness stopping me. hehe. Well, I'm not going to make this a BIG post, cause it's the morning and I have no brain power xD.
So yeah, Sort of got things off my chest that I thought I wouldn't need to say out loud o-o. blahhhh .

zzzzzz

Day 23: Your definition of strength?
The will to live. That's probably one of the top strengths in my mind. Cause the mind can dislike the world to the extent of 'not wanting to live anymore'. Though, they tend to forget it and live the life they have, with the strength within them, holding onto the issues, pain and suffering. (Depends on the person, so this is more general(?)). But this is probably the main one I'm thinking at the moment, there are others but I'm a but lazy right now :P

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okay, the day 23 one was done in the morning, and now I'm going to finish it. :L.

Day 24: Your definition of success?
Success? Anything that involves a positive gain! Dealing with a lot of crap from the past, will ALWAYS lead to a great life. Though it depends on the person, so yeah. Good job, good great friends or materialistic gains even.
So yeah, something along those lines... anyways, sorry about the short answer, I'm really lazy to think about it thoroughly. x.x

.私は皆を助けたいと思うができない。私の幸福の皆をすべて与えたいと思う。そして微笑。

wowow! never noticed it was so close... damn... :L
anyways, today was pretty good? more like it just came in an instant! O_O

okay. Let's see...

Japanese -
basically did some Kanji, some had weird strokes o.o... Then did this presentation/game thingy on the board. That program that chooses our names randomly can scare the crap out of you, since you don't know if it's going to be your turn or not -.- scaryy... + did a lot of grammar structures ..
Recess -
Stayed really close to D block... like near the L Block room, weird. Had fun torturing :D.
Geography - ended up doing a skills test (practice) on MOODLE x_x . didn't finish it, cause there were too many questions and ended up signing up for the SC tutor thing in the holidays. o: Bankstown was full, so picked Livo.
Science - Did a balloon experiment about the 'galaxy' expanding :L. it was a bit funny though :L. haha. People seriously likes to pop balloons don't they? And writing on the balloons is hilarious :D hehe.
Lunch - it was funny? xD poking people is fun :D. hehe.
Maths - hm, was catching up on majority of the work. I'm REALLY behind D; though I guess I can make it o-o.! before she checks that is, i hope D;

Now on Restaurant City :D. mwahaha...yummy food.......

Day 21: Your definition of love?
A feeling. A blessing. A heartbreak. Ambiguous. My definition on love is just basically the needed feeling and care for and from others; which is involves the heart into a new step into your emotions. It is the heart's appetite to live on and smile.

Day 22: Your definition of happiness?
Happiness? I would say anything that involves even a hint of positivity within the mind. Even a forced laugh may brighten your mind & heart a bit. It's true, happened to me, why can't someone else experience it? My definition would just be the nice and warmth feeling in the heart which is enlightened by ones' surroundings. Such a blissful feeling. :D

Wanting to make someone close to you happy, is one of the best feelings ever. Though why have sadness in the first place? Humans just love to make everything difficult and interesting don't they?

Life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated.
-Confucius

Damn right. But, yeah, some people can affect us pretty easily o: ; oh wells, if there were no problems, the maturity of people and the wisdom within the minds will cease to exist.

Guess thinking too much can affect so much within you o-o..

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*sleeps * zzz

Day 19: Write a letter to a character in a book or movie.
Adeline Yen Mah,
Your story as a young child seems so saddening yet, you pulled it off at the very end. Your stepmother really does irritate the crap out of me. Though you had not that many places to run to and had to stay with that horrible place D: . But I really admire you that you faced it for many years, especially as a child. You are probably having a nice life right now, as you are an adult and away from your horrid stepmother. :D

Day 20: Write a letter to yourself.
Hello me. There are so many things to say to you, that I probably kill thousands of pages. Anyways. Why can't you be less paranoid these days and depends more on the intuition and common sense you have? Sure, you have a decent amount of wisdom, but seriously, stay strong for any possible outcomes. AND DON'T BE RECKLESS. Plus, you better decrease that amount of procrastinating or I'm going to smack you in the head. Right now, your life seems pretty okay, shouldn't complain too much I guess. Just keep up with the good positivity and make it stay pretty high! xD