♥

This song beautiful :)
I cannot stress on how calming and emotional this song is!
I'll place the lyrics+video underneath so you know what the heck I'm talking about xDD

どうか今だけは振り向かないで

夕暮れさわぐ風触れそうな距離

君を見つめてるずっと

please, just for now, please don't turn around

the evening, the rustling wind, the distance of nearly touching

i could keep looking at you, forever

君に届け君に届け

叶わない恋でもいい傷ついてもいい

何度でも伝えたい

i'm reaching to you, i'm reaching to you

even an unrequited love would be fine, to get hurt too would be fine

no matter how many times, i want to tell you

君が好きで君が好きで

眠れない夜でもいい朝が来なくてもいい

何度でも伝えたい君に届け

i like you, i like you

even sleepless nights would be fine, if morning didn't come it would be fine

no matter how many times, i want to tell you, i'm reaching to you

今日も思い出がひとつ増えてく

ため息ためらいさえ愛しいくらい

君を待っていたずっと

today too, my memories of you increase

your sigh, even if it's only a hesitation, is still dear to me

i have waited for you, forever

君に届け君に届け

叶わない恋でもいい傷ついてもいい

何度でも伝えたい

i'm reaching to you, i'm reaching to you

even an unrequited love would be fine, to get hurt too would be fine

no matter how many times, i want to tell you

君が好きで君が好きで

眠れない夜でもいい朝が来なくてもいい

何度でも伝えたい君に届け

i like you, i like you

even sleepless nights would be fine, if morning didn't come it would be fine

no matter how many times, i want to tell you, i'm reaching to you

君に届け君に届け

叶わない恋でもいい傷ついてもいい

何度でも伝えたい

i'm reaching to you, i'm reaching to you

even an unrequited love would be fine, to get hurt too would be fine

no matter how many times, i want to tell you

君が好きで君が好きで

眠れない夜でもいい朝が来なくてもいい

何度でも伝えたい君に届け

i like you, i like you

even sleepless nights would be fine, if morning didn't come it would be fine

no matter how many times, i want to tell you, i'm reaching to you

Screw it, gahhhhh.
Not having the best days atm.
Stupid hard drive.
&
Stupid school laptop. = ='

I WANT MY ANIME BACK DAMMIT.
Copying anime into a hard drive that has the folder but does not contain the files is just wtf. Technology is taking its toll... = = ..

AFHBDGKJA;DKF;AKGDJGSJFSKGLDJFADSFSGDLKGJLS

Just got my L's today! yay! :3
Since it was odd knowing that I have seen every single question from the practice tests on RTA, and did not even touch the handbook. LOL.
Since I was excited to start driving, ended up asking my mum if I can drive tonight, and she agreed.
Considering the fact that the next time I'll be able to drive will be like... a long time from here since rents are always busy D:<
Then,
there were two teeny, tiny problems...
1. It was sprinkling, hence wet grounds.
2. It was at night, considering it's my first time. TT_TT
I haven't been so scared in my life O_O whoever says that driving is fun, oh god, that's going to take a while for me to believe.. O__O
LOL

- mum told me to do a U-turn (wthhh!) and I slightly bumped on the side of the road.
- got paranoid by every single car that came up at me.
- I suck at multitasking.

I have never played Tekken with such tension before. Dang, it feels awesome and fun. xD

I just don't get it.
At one point I want to stay as kid and live childish, however I want freedom.
And another when I want to grow up and get freedom, be with great and loving people, however I want to go back to being a child and live freely. :/
What to look forward to?

Some bits in the future are starting to grow thorns and piercing the skin quite horridly. I can't stand it really. :/
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Sorry for the indirect post ._.'
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Got this off fb~ o:

1. Real name: Cindy Tran

2. Nickname(s): I don't really have a proper nickname o-o

3. Favourite color: blue/aqua

4. Male or female: Female

5. Elementary School: Chester Hill North P.S

6. Middle School: -

7. High School: Chester Hill H.S

8. College: preferably UNSW

9. Hair Color: black

10. Tall or Short: short. ._.'

11. Sweats or jeans: jeans

12. Phone or Camera: Phone

13. Health freak: sometimes ^^'

14. Orange or Apple: both :D

15. Do you have a crush on someone: nope

16. Eat or Drink: eat

17. Piercings: none

18. Pepsi or Coke: coke

HAVE YOU EVER?

19. Been in an airplane: yes

20. Been in a relationship: yes

21. Been in a car accident: yes

22. Been in a fist fight: never o-o

23. First piercing: nope, and don't plan to :L

24. Close friend(s): They know who they are :)

25. Are you gay: no

26. First crush: Year........5-6? If I remember correctly.

27. First word: no idea. O_O

29. Last person you talked to: Kelly

30. Last person you texted: Jessica

31. Last person you watched a movie with: I don't remember O_O

32. Last food you ate: asian food. YUMMM.

33. Last movie you watched: I don't remember TT_TT. It's all anime for me D:

34. Last song you listened to: I'll be there for you - The Rembrandts

35. Last thing you bought: Arashi Anniversary 5x10 Tour DVD ^___^

36. Last person you hugged: *thinking...thinking* I CAN'T REMEMBER D; holidays just kills my memory D:

FAVOURITE:

37. Food : a lot

38. Drink: water&juce

39. Bottoms: tights/jeans

40. Flower: no particular one.

41. Animal: birds

42. Colour : blue/aqua

43. Movie: any :L

44. Subject: Japanese/English

HAVE YOU EVER:

(Put an X in the brackets if yes)

45. [x] fallen in love with someone.

46. [ ] celebrated Halloween

47. [x] had your heart broken

48. [ x] went over the minutes/texts on your cell phone.

49. [ ] had someone question my sexual orientation.

50. [ ] had a hickey

51. [ ] got pregnant.

52. [ ] had an abortion.

53. [x] did something I regret.

54. [ ] broke a promise.

55. [x] hid a secret.

56. [x] pretended to be happy.

57. [x] met someone who changed your life.

58. [ ] pretended to be sick.

59. [x] left the country

60. [x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it.

61. [x] cried over the silliest thing.

62. [ ] ran a mile.

63. [ ] went to the beach with your best friend.

64. [x] got into an argument with your friends.

65. [x] disliked someone.

66. [ ] stayed single for 2 years since the first time you had a boyfriend/girlfriend.

CURRENTLY:

67. Eating: not eating D:

68. Drinking: not drinking D:

69. Listening: dialogue from Lucky Star

70. Sitting/Laying: sitting

71. Plans for today: do work.

72. Waiting for: the motivation to move and do some damn work D:<

YOUR FUTURE:

73. Want kids: Sure? o-o

74. Want to get married: yea

75. Career: Either Counselling psychologist or a Teacher teaching overseas. (preferably Japan :3)

76. Lips or eyes: both?

77. Shorter or Taller: I want to grow to at least 160cm D:<

78. Romantic or spontaneous: both :D

79. Quiet or crowded wedding: middle.

80. What you nom nom nom, other than food: nomnom

81. Hook-up or relationship: Hook up? Relationship

82. Looks or personality: Personality

HAVE YOU EVER:

83. Lost glasses/contacts: Nope

84. Snuck out of a house: nope

85. Held a gun/knife for self defense: nope.

86. Killed somebody: nope.

87. Broke a heart: Yup

88. Been in love: yup

89. Cried when someone died: yea

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

90. Yourself: Good question, but my answer is 'I have no idea'.

91. Miracles: I guess.

92. Love at first sight: I don't really care :/

93. Heaven: Probably.

94. Santa Claus: Nope.

95. Sex after marriage: Yup.

96. Ghosts: Somehow..yeah.

TRUTHFULLY:

97. Is there one person you really want to be with right now: yup :( all of my good friends TT_TT (I don't think that should be counted as a 'person', but oh wells.)

98. Do you know who your real friends are: yup

99. Do you believe in God: If you count Buddha, then yeah.

100. Post as 100 truths: I don't get this.. o-o

...

Hmm.. no comment.

The holidays are ending within a week. Am I scared?

DAMN STRAIGHT, I'M PETRIFIED. O__O Why can't I stop with all this unwanted procrastination and actually do some decent studying TT_TT.

Haven't even got my L's and apparently my mum wants me to take it before school starts D: I don't even think I'm ready for it -.-'

Holidays are... fast? If I were to describe it in one go o-o'

That's what I get for slacking off TT.TT'

Anyways, went to the city yesterday with mum&sister. Ate there for breakfast, however got a stomachache coincidently afterwards... Anyways, looked around Chinatown and Market City. Found an awesome, cute japanese clothing store *w*!!!! ALL IMPORTED FROM JAPAN. BOOOM! Except that the prices were sky-rocketing (not surprisied ><) After that, bought an Arashi DVD Tour 5x10 :3 hehehehehe. & I should really control my spending - -'

Need to save up for a new phone~

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Everything, everything you have witnessed, everything you have encountered, makes life interesting in a whole new level. Ironically we prefer to proceed life without worries, nevertheless, everyone will encounter the worse and the best.

Indoor Coaster.
Needle.
Target.
Family.
Unknown occurred death.
Fear.
Adrenaline.
Parking lot.
Reckless Driving.
Chased.
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That was one wtf dream. It's like a crime scene o.O Except that the indoor coaster just doesn't fit in much. Wonder what's wrong with me now.. What am I lacking/fearing/yearning for now?
*checks on dreammoods.com*
Driving: To dream that you are driving a vehicle, signifies your life's journey and your path in life. The dream is telling of how you are moving and navigating through life. Fail, since I was recklessly driving. ._.
Family: To see your own family in your dream, represents security, warmth and love. It could also symbolize bitterness, jealousy, or rivalry, depending on your relationship with your family.
Needle: To see or use a needle in your dream, indicates that you need to mend some relationship or situation that has gotten out of hand. To dream that someone is using a needle, suggests that you need to incorporate and join together various aspects of your consciousness. The person was pricked by a needle hence somehow they were in danger?
Parking Lot: To dream that you are in parking lot, suggests that you need to slow down and take time from your daily activities. ...oh dear.

Now I cbb with the rest.. sort of got an idea anyway. I seriously need to relax completely.
Anyways, I NEED TO DO SOME WORK D: TT_TT..

What to do, What to do , what to damn do.

So far, I've been playing games and procrastinating. Did a decent amount of work, but not enough :/
WHERE'S THE MOTIVATIONN ?!
*looks under a pillow* TT_TT

In the mean time, I should start practice Japanese ._.' GAHHH !
イライラしている！

yayayay! holidays are coming! Time to get to work! (maybe).
Work is piling like crazy.
People even think my weekly schedule is crazy.
1-2hrs of piano lessons + a total of 6 hrs of tutor (2 hrs for each consecutive day). = wtf.
I know that I mention if from time to time, and probably might annoy some people, but sometimes I find them lucky to have time for leisure and enjoyment once and a while.
Studying is good, but breaks/pauses is a significant necessity.

Anyways, going to type down the DRAFT half-yearlies on here before I forget:
M = Morning; AN = Afternoon
WEEK A
Monday M - Maths 2u
Tuesday M - Maths 3u
Wednesday & Thursday AN - Japanese Cont.
Friday M - English
WEEK B
Monday M - Photography
Tuesday M - Biology
Wednesday AN - FT

KABOOOM.

Argh. I seriously dislike permutations. Probability has never been a friendly topic to me. The only reason why is because there are more than one methods to do a variety of questions. DD:
$$##@%^$#!^@^$%^$#%#$%@#.
= ='

Is there something wrong with me? Is it all in my simplistic, little imagination that is overtaking me right now? Looking back of what you've done and going 'Holy crap, I should of not said that or they will misinterpret me and judge me and la di da.' .__.
What am I doing wrong?
:/

I'm afraid of unfortunate events in the future.
An invisible fear.
-

I can't even summarise properly without looking like a noob D:
Anyways, moving on..
got a bio test tmr, not happy due to not paying much attention to biology... .__.' oops.
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If it happened for a reason, then you will prove to me it was meant to be.

Now I'm going to post this and not add any more spontaneous thoughts without proper structure. - -'

It's the matter of effort you need and to create,
not the matter of what you currently have.

Even the 'unlikely' can be the 'likely', some day.

Do your best :)

The refreshing week.

There is so much I want to do, like random stuff I want to do in life xD
Here's a list:

Cosplay/Crossdress
Buy clothing online
Try and attempt dancing
Start drawing more
travelling
finish an AMV at some point..
volunteer work
attempt my L's

... I think there's more... but oh wells, these were in my mind for a while :D

If any ideas that were listed above in dot points made you go WTH, then I'm sorry o_o'

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On the other hand, problems are indirecting arising. Oddly enough.

Let's see what I can do...

Japanese students came to our school today~ waa~ why are they so cute D:?
Their innocence is sky-rocketing.
O_O !
Too bad that we only had 2 periods with them D: better than nothing, right?
Tried speaking to them, but sort of failed at the end.. still need more practice!!!! >.
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Mum took my 500$ ... feels like I've been bank-robbed. D: wanted to use it for something else.. but oh wells.
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My mind is losing it. After hearing that, I'm going nuts on paranoia. GAHHHHH !
-calm- ._. ~!
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Work overload. Nuff said. = ='
People still think I'm crazy.