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I do not, I repeat, do NOT know what the heck is wrong with me.

One minute I'm fine, then sudden, I'm growing emotional of things that I'm not meant to be.

What the hell.

The thing and fear on my mind,

it's just that everything doesn't seem right.

I feel like I don't fit,

generally.

*trying to understand my mind*

I DON'T GET ITTTTT !! GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!

Anyways, I shall be back when I know what I'm talking about ._.'

Okayy. Recently I downloaded 'Sebelius', a program to compose music sheets.
Since I'm obsessed with a song and does not have any sheets available online ._., so I decided to make one. And it looks really retarded atm. :L

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It will all come into place.

Just wait.

Sometimes,
I look around,
I see black lines of darkness rushing out to the pure, open air as the voice screeches in agony and anger.
I see their need to cry, I see their invisible tears of a painful heart building the terror and blankness into their eyes.
Yet,
I ask, how long will this last?

Everyone has their bad moments, right?
They hide it all in until they spill the whole bottle out.
They spill, they clean up the mess,
and usually feel relieved afterwards.

The past happened, no need to bring it up, because there are people out there trying to look after you. That's when you need to realise the importance of the ones that matter, even though it does not relate to your current state, nevertheless, they scale high enough to break your chains of the past to something better.
'Who's more important? Important enough to stay with you in your ups and downs and support with all their heart?'
When you hear that, you start to think, and later smile gently.
Glad and relieved to know where you are going, and move from then on.
It's a nice feeling.

大丈夫。いつも、大丈夫だ。
＾－＾

I believe that in the end, everything will be okay. Always.

You have no idea how true this is.

What the heck?

Something's definitely wrong.

*BIGGG HUGGGG *

We all need one at some point, right? :3

My previous draft post went GREYBSBYSTAESTGFHJVYGS.
So I'll just sum it up here.

- Yes, identifying two suns DOES NOT mean the world is going to end. If the suns were to collide, that would happen millions of years later.
- Natural Disasters DO NOT ENTIRELY MEAN that 2012 is the deadline. It's global warming, it's our fault. Man cannot predict the earth's lifetime expectancy. If there were no such things as numbers then that would be a different story.
- CHILLAX. If it happens, it happens. Live your life as if you never knew anything.

Man can't predict anything 100%.

I apologize to anyone who is sick of hearing about the whole 'OMG THE EARTH IS GOING TO EXPLODE IN 2012', or anything along those lines.
Sorry guys for the rant. >.<'

I do not know how the 'Pauline Hanson is a racist' come out of no where.
Her mind is quite different and solid, however, I seriously disapprove of Hanson's horrible thoughts. ._.'
I don't think 'racist' is the right word to describe her. Meh, oh wells. o-o

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zzzz ..zz ..zzz .. SLEEP ISH AWESOME.
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This year is going to fly as fast as a jet. Weeee~

I'm going to change what I can and don't pay attention of what I can't.

I will change my self-esteem.

I will.

Just hope the motivation stays for around a year's time? x]

行きましょう～!

＊Motivation＊（＞＾＜）！

“Love is of all passions the strongest, for it attacks simultaneously the head, the heart and the senses.”

- Lao Tzu

It's quite confusing how:

- you don't know what's right and what wrong

- everything is an opinion, a theory.

- you try and grab as much perspectives in life to understand our world, but end up creating a perspective of your own.

It kind of irritates me how there is no 'right' nor a 'wrong' way in life.

I know that if we did, life would be boring/unexciting, but sometimes you would like a little guidance, right?

At that point,
at some moment in time,
the mind will just sit there completely helpless and confused.