Ahh ...brings back memories... on when I was a noob on video editing. LOL. Welps, being on iTunes and on shuffle playing random nostalgic songs. I swear, majority of the songs just hits a flash images/emotions of my past .. Even at the most happy memories, it feels depressing for some reason. Like, it gives me a sad feeling, as if the memories will never return.
I also remember when a friend of mine gave me a bunch of Chinese songs, and oh dear gosh, I was about to cry in happiness. As they were the songs my parents sang to me when I was a toddler. Due to the fact that I did NOT know the songs' names until recently(ish), I haven't heard them in AGES. So that's probably why I was hyper/happy? :3
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arghh. just, farrrrouutttt ... screw it. ffs.
Sometimes the feeling of hating yourself just comes out naturally doesn't it?